The People of CrossFit®: My Untold Story #16

October 16, 2018

Photocredit: Zevia

NAME: MINDY OHL 
AGE: 39
BOX: XRE

Tell us a little bit about yourself (family, job, hobbies, interests, etc.).

I’m a teacher. I have 3 kiddos who are my world - Avery, Marshall, & Collin. CrossFit has become my therapy <3 

When did you start doing CrossFit®?

Jan 2018

How did you hear about CrossFit®?

I heard about this gym from a good friend

How has your approach to CrossFit® changed since first starting?

I slow down to learn virtuosity

What types of changes have you seen (mentally, physically, and/or lifestyle) since starting CrossFit®?

My depression and anxiety are being managed through nutrition and CrossFit®. I was not having success through psychiatrists nor medication

What helps you get the most out of your CrossFit® Workouts? 

Resilience. It’s mentally challenging. I’ve learned that exercise is mostly mental.

What would you say to someone starting CrossFit® for the first time?

You're still a good person if you don’t know how to do an exercise. Just listen to your coaches and don’t take it personally

Something you might not know about me: 

(CLICK TO SEE VIDEO - MUST WATCH!! **SUPER INSPIRING**)

"So it’s time we all had a talk... A talk about mental illness, addiction, and what society thinks it looks like. I am making this post to create awareness, not to garner pity or judgment. 

See me on the left? We all know that Mindy that I present to you on FB and when I see you out in life. What you don’t know if that was me in the middle of one of the darkest times in my life. That was taken last July. I could barely get myself out of bed. I was isolating myself from the world. I could hardly look at myself in the mirror without bursting into tears. That was Mindy with Major Depressive Disorder, Insomnia, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder- unaware and untreated. 

          

Do I look depressed? Does it look like I want to crawl out of my skin because I’m not comfortable in it? 

And to make matters worse, I had nothing to be depressed about: I have an incredible husband, 3 amazing children, and a career that I love. And so I went home every day and drank. And drank. And drank. Because I felt guilty for being depressed. I was actively participating in the self-destruction of Mindy Ohl because I didn’t want anyone to know, and I was afraid to ask for help. 

Finally, one day, fear to course through my veins, I woke up and drove myself to a mental health facility. I didn’t know what else to do. There I was diagnosed with all of the above and treated.

Take a look at me on the right. That picture was taken 2 days ago. That’s still mentally-ill Mindy. That’s just me after I have asked for help and chosen self-love and discipline over the alcohol. Over the food that was also my medication. I have chosen to take care of myself because I love being me and I have learned to become focused on challenging who I can become. This is what MY recovery looks like. This is me looking at depression in the mirror every day and saying “No - not today.”

I want you all to know this about me because I am not ashamed of who I am. I have learned to move past my mistakes and to always ask for help. One day at a time.

 

Thanks for reading my untold story,

Mindy